hypocrites are well alive

In our so called civilized society, we are told women are equals to men and they can have a career and a family. In the fact, this is a lie. A big fat lie. I myself experienced this no later than this week. And it is a terrible feeling.
When the childcare options came to discussion, we had three possibilities.

• Not going back to work. But being a housewife has never been my dream and we can't afford that anyway.
• Going part full time but the £200/week nuseries is way too much
• Going back part time which seemed the best solution.

So I asked for a part time. I was lucky enough to have a positive answer. I work 3 days per week and I am at home with my girl the rest of the time.
It is a good balance and I don't miss my little girl's life. I work which I enjoy.

The society tells women they can work and have a family. But nuserseies cost an avarage of £200/week, it is way to expensive. Also, it is really hard to find availibilities in nurseries. Also the time table. It is usually open from 7:30 to 6. I have to be at work at 8. I leave home at 7. I can't bring her there. My husband works on flexi so he can drive her in the morning.
The truth is woman has to choose. Or the choice is made for them.

I had a violent reality check this week.

Three weeks ago, one of my co-worker with a better position quit. I immediatly say I wanted to apply for this position because I have done the job before and I really wanted it.
I talk to my team lead. When the schedule issue came on the table, I clearly said that full time was not possible at my hand. I was told I could apply anyway.

I had the interview with this rude girl. And then nothing. I waited. In the meantime, another person with the same position quit as well.
After 2 weeks of waiting and seeing people getting interview for the job, I was told I could not get the job because I am not full time.
After a discussion with a co worker, it became obvious, we are punish because we haven't sacrified motherhood for career. She lived that before. Now it is my turn (even is no one has the respect to actually tell me if I would have had the position otherwise or not.They found the perfect excuse without having to justify themselves. Not talking about the fact my co-worker who shown no interest at first for the position had the deal done within 24hrs. But she is not a mum)

So because I am a mum, I am stuck to the botton of the working scale. As I have an old contract and never had a rise, my salary is less than a person who has just been hired.

Not fair? Make the person feels workless? True!

In fact society is full of hypocrites, it wants to make people beleive they can have it all but the only thing is, to them, woman with children should be home and not at work.